My Kids Are Weird Part 1: "I WAN YER ARM!"

Oh but they are.

"I WAN YER ARM!" is what my 2yo son screams at me. Mostly during nap time and bed time.

All of my kids have had little things they need to do to get to sleep. My first son had to flick my fingernails. My now 4yo daughter had to twirl my hair. And my 2yo, he's obsessed with shirt hems. If a shirt hem isn't handy a pant leg hem will do (especially in his car seat). I know he's tired when he starts fiddling with his shirt or pant leg hem. He's mostly into the shirt sleeve hems.

Last winter he would actually lay with his head near my butt for the best access to my long sleeve shirt hem. I guess he's forgotten about that now. It was fairly easy during the summer with short sleeves for him to cuddle up next to me, fiddle with my short sleeve hem and go off to sleep. I was glad to have switched to a natural deodorant for the amount of time his fingers were actually in my armpits. And never mind all the pinching and scratching...the kid was tearing my armpits up trying to get a good fiddle on my shirt sleeve hem!

Now we are back to long sleeves and he just hasn't gotten his groove back with it yet. And to complicate matters there has been an addition to the other side of me during nap and bed times. This addition requires some arm for nursing...so every time I have to do some adjusting and getting baby back on the boob I hear "I WAN YER ARM!" "I WAN YER ARM!!!!" Ohmygosh. If I had a penny for every time I've heard that... It started in the bedroom, but now any time he's tired or I'm sitting next to him it's "I WAN YER ARM!!"

I feel like I need to make him some kind of modified "Taggie" blanket that is chock full O' hems!! Maybe that will solve it? Probably not. Somehow I think it's person specific. Thank God he doesn't go around telling everyone he wants their arm!

Of course it's not only my arm. He also wants my zippers. With the cold weather I've been wearing a jacket around the house...Don't even ask how many times I've looked down to my waist to see a kid attached to my zipper at the bottom of my jacket!

I'm not one of those "touchy feely" types of people. Of course I make myself available that way for my kids, because you just have to...but I think I may need to start drawing a line somewhere. I feel like I'm pulling kids off like ticks these days! LOL!!

And I'd kind of like to have my arm back ;)

Friends, who needs them?

I do.

I like to pretend like I don't. But honestly, I think everyone needs at least a couple of friends.

Sure I have tons of friends on facebook. Friends from high school, family friends, friends from my party days ;) And I interact with them there. But that's just not the same.

There are sometimes when I go a whole week without interacting with anyone, without seeing anyone, without leaving the house.

I used to imagine myself a hermit, writing, living in a cabin in the woods. Now I know I would never make it on my own like that. It's downright hard even with a houseful of kids.

I used to claim to be anti-social. But now I know I'm really not. I need social activity. I need to be able to socialize if I so desire. Even if I just knew there were people around I could socialize with if I wanted to, that would make things better. I could feel better.

Sadly, in the past six years that I've lived in this isolated remote area I've had about one friend. One person who called me to chat. One person out there that I felt actually cared about me and wanted to hear from me. She didn't live anywhere near me, but still - it counted.

Unfortunately I discovered too late that this person wasn't a friend at all. Probably never was. She was someone I met through an online forum/community. I was naive. I think I always have been, especially when it comes to people. I always choose to believe in the good and have faith in humanity and believe that people will do what is right and moral and ethical. But that's not always the case.

It's amazing how quickly you find out who your real friends are.

It's kind of funny, but the last two "groups" of friends I've had have met their demise in similar fashion. The friend I mentioned above was part of a "group" of friends I had that met in an online forum. We started a facebook group just for ourselves where we could chat with each other. Unfortunately after a month or so someone made a joking comment that offended another one of them. Feelings were hurt, people chose sides. The one friend I mentioned above was the one who was offended by another's comment - she had been calling me and talking since we had started the group and shared phone numbers. I read through the comments and decided they were both being overly sensitive and I chose NOT to chose sides and I told the lady who was calling me that I would not chose sides. I never contacted the other lady to tell her that I wasn't taking sides, so unfortunately she probably assumed that I had taken the other side, but that wasn't the case - we just had never called and talked to each other (I am not one for making phone calls). From that point on my "friend" would only call me to complain about the other...those were the only time she initiated contact with me. She wanted to find out if I was talking to her and what she was saying, etc...the rest of the group had sided with the other lady.

That was pretty much the beginning of the end of our friendship. I continued to talk to her when she called me, but things got out of hand on the forum and when I really needed a friend she made it clear where she stood. And that was NOT as my friend. That was a really low blow.

The other group of friends I had was back in college. Ten years ago now! This group of friends similarly imploded between two of the girls I was friends with and I pretty much chose one side. Regardless, the group of friends was disbanded...

But these were the last two times I'd had friends in my life. And sometimes friends aren't worth all the drama that comes along with having them. But I do miss them. Well, I miss having friends. Sometimes ;)

Craziness ;)

All about the crazy and chaotic here.

So let's see. Ah yes, added another baby boy to the mix ;) Like 6 months ago now!! LOL!!

My littlest guy was born in mid April weighing 6lbs 11oz. Or somewhere around there. They weighed him in at 7lbs 11oz, which was way off as after 24 hours he weighed 6lbs 9oz. So it was either a written error or weighing error. I did notice that when they zero'd out the scale the nurse had also picked up all the blankets with him, so my guess is that the blankets weighed around a pound or so. 6lbs 11oz is good by me - then all 3 of my boys' weights are 6/13, 6/12 and 6/11.

I ended up having gestational diabetes again, which I figured I would. It was tougher this time around and the things that worked to keep my blood sugars under control last time didn't work this time. I ended up on insulin. But this time I had a wonderful diabetic nutritionist who worked very closely with me and was super helpful! I ended up losing weight at the end trying to keep my bs down...and thankfully was blessed with a healthy baby :)

Things got really crazy during this last pregnancy. Starting at my 20 week ultrasound. They discovered that baby had a 2 vessel cord, which meant more monitoring. Then around 25/26 weeks or so I started having issues with low fluid levels. We did weekly monitoring for the gd and fluid levels...there were also about 3-4 times during those weekly monitoring sessions that they ended up keeping me for further monitoring and discussing having to have baby early... Needless to say I was on pins and needles for the last half of my pregnancy.

In the end everything worked out! I ended up having a C-section because of a previous level 4 tear, and that ended up to be a great thing because baby was butt down! I also ended up having a tubal. And I'm quite glad for that as the c/s recovery was awful and I never want to go through that again!!

New baby is the biggest fattest one of all :) He's growing by leaps and bounds :)

I'm adjusting.

I neglected this blog because I found a new obsession: cloth diapering. And a wonderful forum where I could interact with other ladies with similar interests. But I have thrown that addiction to the way side (the forum that is)...so maybe I will have more time for here :)

My biggest issue right now is isolation. I live in a town with a population of under 100 in a rural area. We've been here for almost 6 years now. It's lonely. It's hard. I have no family or friends around here. I have no support. And unsympathetic husband. And...yeah, I'm suffering from a serious bout of depression. I need to make some major changes in my life, but I don't even know where to start and how drastic. I feel like I really need to move elsewhere - at least into a town where I can get out and go for a walk with the kids or something. But I just don't see that happening anytime soon.

My other big issue is "me time"

I used to complain that I didn't have time to do anything. With 4 little ones now, I *really* don't have much time for myself at all. And again with the unsympathetic dh. The way he sees it is that I'll have time for myself when the kids are older. Until then...well I guess I shouldn't need time to shower, brush my teeth, think...

Oh well. I ramble.

So that's a little update on me.

Am I Back??

So, um yeah, it's been a while. Not sure if I will be coming back or not. I loved blogging, but it was sooo time consuming. Especially if you need that bloggy love ;) got to do all the visiting and commenting to get people to come read your posts... And I'm lazy. And super busy. So I just don't have time to do much of that. And that's just not being a good bloggy buddy. So if you're good with one way friendships come back and read ;)

Let's see... yeah I have another baby. Love my squishy last baby!!! No more for me. Had a tubal after a C-section. Wow. The c-section was a whole new experience for me. I will probably come back to write about it at some point. I'm still recovering: physically and mentally.

So I'm chasing around 4 children ages 5 and under. And they get into everything. They require most of my time. And even then I'm not there for them as much as I should be. Right now they all desperately need a bath. But of course so do I!! :)

Anyway, if you're still here I will probably be back again soon for some good Ol' Lazy Crazy Mama stuff!!

Still here :)

Yep, still here. Still pregnant. Nauseous as hell. Busy as hell! LOL!! And trying to find time to sew diapers in between feeling like puking and having diapers to change and butts to wipe ;)

And dh is on vacation (at home!) this week. UGH! It's only Monday and he's already driving me bonkers!!

Oh well. I guess I will survive.

Guess What?

What could make things around here more hectic? More chaotic? More crazy?
And of course make more work and less time for mommy?? ;)
You guessed it, we have another one on the way!! Not exactly planned, but in no way unwanted :)
Besides, what's one more?
Ha! My husband accused me of wanting another so I could cloth diaper for longer. He may just be on to something there ;)
Well, this means I totally have to step up the potty training bit with Baby Sister. So, plan on getting busy making cloth training pants this week!

On Vacation Auto Reply

;) I'm on vacation! A real vacation guys! ;) In Colorado for the first time ever. And it's beautiful here! And guess what? All my crazy kids are doing great!!! That's the most unbelievable part!

I am out visiting my brother and sister-in-law, who I haven't seen in about 3 years!! They have a girl who was born 2mos after my first, Little Man. And they have a little boy who was born 2 weeks after my Lazy Baby :) The older 2 haven't been together since they were just over a year.

My sister also has one that is about the same age as little man and my niece. They have visited with my brother a few times since they moved. They usually have an awful time with the kids not getting along. So I was really wary of how Little Man and my niece would get along. And I figured that my kids would totally overwhelm my brother and sil... but guess what?? The kids are getting along GREAT!!! AND: my kids have not been out of control crazy! My biggest pest (Little Man) has been so occupied and entertained by playing with my niece that he has been behaving great!! :)

The only issue with this trip is my husband ;) he's been a royal PITA!! LOL!! But that's typical. He hates traveling, he hates visiting with people, hates being social... etc... But we are really only here because he has to be here - won't go into details about that - but... so he's been gone during the day. So I'm not letting his attitude ruin anything ;)

I'm just so pleased that we're having such a good time! :)

I will be back to complaining in t-3 days ;)